dominance | ( eudio cuddlr )

[ octavia knows bellamy, and that's why she's not surprised. everyone else? they'd required some explanation about his rationale behind his words. it'd given him a headache for a long time to explain he couldn't be bothered deleting his app (a slight lie) and he wasn't too interesting of a person (a truth). ]

I only got this thing so I could make my deal here. [ he shrugs his shoulders, brows pulling together. it's all business and no pleasure for him, even though bellamy's beginning to get that a little mixed up. ] You can't get to know someone through a profile.

[ her eyebrows perks as she looks at him.] So should I leave it? Are you getting good results? [ she makes a sound.] I don't want details.

[ bellamy shakes his head with a smile. ]

The only person who's bothered to swipe is Elsa, and that'd been to get me to notice she changed my profile in the first place.

[ he could tell her of the chats he's had with the girls who have swiped right on him, if only to see her pull a disgusted face. but he leaves it for now as he looks at her with a grin. it's not important. he thinks he can guess the reason why she's taken an interest in his profile, and while he wants to tell her she doesn't have to worry about him (even though she does), he decides to try and fluster her instead. ]

You can just leave it blank. It's cute you're looking out for me.

Someone has to. [ go ahead, try to fluster her! ] You're apparently kind of hopeless when it comes to getting some... dates. [ she looks at the phone again before smirking.]

And I doubt she swiped just for that reason.

[ narrowing his eyes, he shakes his head. ] You don't know what you're talking about. You haven't been here when people were swiping right for me.

[ he isn't offended at all, but bellamy feels like he has to prove himself to octavia. he's not hopeless! he simply prefers keeping a distance between himself and everyone else. it's safer and it's smarter and he's more comfortable that way. talking to octavia about this ends up with her teasing him, and though he enjoys seeing her more brighter and lighter than she's been in ages, it's still at his expense, and it's still slightly encroaching on a territory he's not even comfortable acknowledging just yet. ]

You're hanging out with your little sister on a Friday night, Bell. [ which means that your dating life has to suck or something. she's got an excuse, she's new. of course, she's not putting it together that he'd rather be hanging out with her than anyone else apparently. ]

That's why I'm redoing your profile.

[ his face scrunches up. ]

What's wrong with hanging out with my little sister on a Friday night?

[ they'd done it every friday night for a good portion of their lives, and he'd never thought anything wrong by it. he still doesn't now. even with all the social rules and how it'd frame him to be "uncool", the only person he's ever sought to be "cool" with is her. ]

Because you could be on a date or something. [ a small part of her is glad he isn't because right now, this place is still overwhelming and confusing.]

[ bellamy looks at her for a long moment. thinking of playing it off as a joke, he instead leans in toward her and taps her shoulder to bring her attention to him — just so she can see how he's not pretending here. it's not a joke to him, and if she thinks he'd rather be anywhere else but here with her — she has another thing coming. ]

O, if you want to hang out with me other people can wait. Doesn't matter if I have a date or some soccer game going on. You come first. [ he shrugs his shoulders. it's so simple to him, and he wonders if she'll ever see it. ] Everyone else can wait.

[ for a moment, there's a swell of frustration that she doesn't understand. why would he want to spend time with her? after she ruined his life? she pictures her mother being dragged off to be floated (she didn't see it), there's an ache that rattles in her chest at the idea of it.

your fault.

she wonders if she'd be so forgiving if the tables were turned. if it had been his fault. she glances away from him, forcing herself away from those thoughts.]

I'm pretty sure that soccer and a date are two very different things... I think.

[ he shrugs his shoulders. considering how he and clarke had kicked a ball around, he doesn't think it's too far off to assume some people play soccer for fun as a date. not that he and clarke went on one when it was simply him trying to make her trip over her own feet. ]

I'm pretty sure you can combine both, O.

[ he looks away from her. ] You don't have to hang out with me if you don't want to. I'm not going to force you.

[ she gives his arm a smack, her brow furrowing.] I never said I didn't want to hang out with you. If I didn't, I wouldn't be here.

[ bellamy does his best to suppress his smile. rubbing at his arm, it hardly stings, but he's always pretended it has whenever she hits him. ]

You're only here for the free food.

[ it's easier to pretend it's that than anything else, even though bellamy beams just a little brighter with her own admission. ]

[ dropping his arm in his lap, he shifts on the couch and slouches even further into it. this is the most relaxed he's felt, or allowed himself to. looking straight ahead, he nudges her with his elbow before he turns to face her. ] What shit are you going to write on it? [ and he nods toward his phone in her hands. ]

You caught me, [ she gives him a smirk as she glances at him, watching him relax even more against the couch as the credits keep rolling on the movie.

she keeps looking at him, holding her phone.]

"I'm not down to earth. At all. Let me take you into my magical world of being shirtless. All the time."

Edited 2016-06-17 04:02 (UTC)

[ bellamy looks at her with an arch to his brow. he's quiet for a long time. ]

Really?

[ that's way worse than elsa's one, and she'd been trying to sound so unlike him on purpose (apparently). he supposes that's the point, but even then, bellamy has to try and stifle his own laughter. ]

[ snorting, she rolls her eyes and hands the device back to him so he can see what she actually typed out.]

A leader and hero. An unwaveringly loyal friend and brother. Actually pretty funny.

[ and at the bottom she had to add:]

And perpetually shirtless

[ she looks at him.] Elsa's is better.

Edited 2016-06-17 06:40 (UTC)

[ if that's how octavia sees him — he can't say it's bad at all. bellamy does his best to feign indifference to what she's written, but he knows that he's blushing just a tiny bit. there's a small smile on his face that can't quite be wiped away, too. octavia's opinion of him is more important than anyone else's, and bellamy's always striven to be someone she can admire and even be proud to call her brother. ]

[ it's too many characters for his profile, otherwise he'd just write that. ]

[ looking to the phone, he flicks his hand toward it as though he's capable of magic that can erase text. ] Can we get rid of everything but the brother part?

[ that's really the only thing he believes in — and he's proud of. ]

I think that's more me.

[ no, bellamy has always striven to take care of her, to protect her at all costs, even at the risk of his own life or freedom. and despite how she might act, octavia hasn't ever forgotten that, not really.

she rolls her eyes at him, even if her lips curve in the same way his had just a moment before.] I'm pretty that won't get you a lot of cuddles.

[ he arches his brow, slightly in disbelief. ] You care about me getting a cuddle? Really?

[ if the shoe was on the other foot, bellamy would feel slightly inclined to say no. he's still a little iffy on octavia being here and having to cuddle strangers, and though he knows they could easily cheat … she has to live her life, and he wants her to. ]

[ it's a good thing he doesn't feel compelled to change her cuddlr profile. ]

[ she looks at him when he asks her that, looking surprised that he's surprised. doesn't he want his incentive? he said he was here for her but if he wasn't cuddling anyone... what did that mean? did he want to keep her safe? it felt wrong even questioning it.

she makes up another excuse, instead.]

Believe it or not, I actually care if you're happy, Bell.

[ the thing is: bellamy wants to meet his incentive, but he's been finding himself disliking the idea of cuddling someone for the sake of getting something out of it. before, he would've. the guy who'd dropped down to the ground would've went for this place and had a good time. but bellamy doesn't want to use someone just so he can meet his deal and get home. ]

[ he doubts octavia would like it, either. using someone to get what he wants for her — it's what had happened to mom on the ark, and bellamy had never felt right since understanding he'd been offered a spot on the guard as a cadet because mom made a deal and let someone use her. ]

I'm happy that you're here.

[ he doesn't need anyone else, and maybe that's the problem. placing so much weight on octavia being here — the only person bellamy will ever acknowledge he needs is her. sometimes he's afraid of admitting as much. ]

I don't need to cuddle someone to be happy, O. [ he looks away from her and shifts, leaning forward to grab the remote from the coffee table to switch the movie off and have spongebob playing in the background. ] I've been holding hands with people to get this deal met. The cuddling thing's just weird.

[ octavia didn't want him using someone like her mother had been used, like her mother had been forced to. but she honestly didn't know if she saw it that way, not when he so clearly had a girl who likes him (and little does she know there's more than one).

why wouldn't he make the most of this place? that's what she would do. that's what she plans to do. to do everything she can while she's here. and she doesn't want the pressure of being the only reason he's happy. it makes her sad to think of it.]

Okay. [ this conversation feels weird, like one she doesn't want to continue.]

[ for someone who is self-aware enough to understand how he ticks and works, bellamy's never quite been able to recognise that placing octavia at the centre of everything he does isn't right. it's not necessarily wrong, either, but when he shoves himself away and focuses solely on her — he doesn't see it. that's the downside to growing up on the ark and being the only pair of siblings. ]

[ he's looked at anna and elsa, and sees how they orbit around one another. he knows elsa would do anything for anna, and he can imagine his assumption anna would do the same in return is right. but he doesn't quite know what makes them so different to octavia and himself, and perhaps it's the way that they've been raised. ]

[ steering the conversation away from cuddlr, bellamy's expression shifts into one of amusement. ]

Would you eat a burger again?

[ it's one thing to orbit one another but it's another thing to sacrifice your own chance at happiness for someone else. octavia doesn't want that for him, she doesn't think he'd let her do the same thing for him. anna and elsa are different because they are sisters, even though like the blakes, they were locked away for most of their childhoods, they weren't living under the constant fear of death or punishment, they had other people looking out for them.

as much as octavia wants to be free, she wants bellamy to be free too. she doesn't want to be a burden, to be the thing that holds him back.]

Uh, yes. Of course. I'd eat another one right now.

[ bellamy's smile widens. ] You want seconds?

[ that's something that can exist in eudio — seconds. rationing on the ark hadn't been kind to either of them, and though mom had often forced his hand as a kid to give half of his food to octavia, it's more of a choice than a sense of obligation he'd given her a portion of anything and everything he'd been given. ]

[ but in eudio, he can inhale an entire buffet of food without needing to think of anyone else. it's weird and it's surreal and he thinks octavia will get a kick out of having more than she's ever had before. ]

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