[ elsa remains sitting against the wall with snowgies all around her, chion still on her head. she makes quite a sight and decides to take and send another photo. the number of snowballs has doubled. ]
Bellamy, don't you start.
He wants to accessorize! Well, I thought it would be nice to accessorize him. And I needed an identifier.
[ maybe he should emphasise the you. he knows he wouldn't be able to identify chion within a snowgie farm. they all look the same to him, same rounded bodies and white snow, same sized heads and feet. he looks at the photo again and finds he smiles, it small and soft. ]
[ bellamy often prefers text to any other function of his phone because it means he can hide. but he finds it's far too confronting for him now. text allows anyone to manipulate it, to erase the rambling and the awkward pauses as someone may require to think when speaking to someone face to face. there's nothing for him to go on but the words and chooses and the fact he's come to know her a little too well to misread her on purpose. ]
[ he sighs and shifts, despite knowing this was inevitable. as much as he wants to blind himself to elsa, he knows she cares for him. it seems to be the common thread between the three people with him and her. ]
Look, I'm sorry you had to be bothered with this and given Chion. I figured I had all of this covered before I came out here. It's the first thing I did.
They weren't meant to come out here. Or even pass off the snowball to you. I was coming back. I just needed a time out.
[ apparently that's what he and clarke needed. the guilt he feels over the entire situation stems from something greater than where they find themselves now. it's only a branch of a much bigger tree, one he hopes elsa never has to see. ]
[ what he says isn't quite more than what he's given everyone else. but it's more than what he usually gives anyone. stack that on top of three people here seeing him vulnerable and he can accurately presume he feels emotional exhaustion from lowering those walls he keeps built so tall and thick from morning to dusk. ]
[ he sends another text: ]
Thanks for taking care of him. He looks like he's enjoying himself.
I understand the need to retreat. I hope it helps you as much as those have helped me in the past.
[ to say she is startled by his relative openness would be an exaggeration but she is grateful for it nonetheless. the fact that he has responded is enough for her for now. ]
[ and he does. he thinks it is. things with between himself and clarke may remain slightly tense and uncertain, but there's no grand elephant in the room. he suspects she'll stop pushing him away now that they've talked and he'll stop fighting her on it. it had been a long, overdue thing he should've had the guts to confront her on before. but it's too easy to brush things under the rug, especially when it comes to himself. ]
[ but his reasons for retreating are far from simple. one of his reasons keeps sending him pictures of snowgies. ]
Hopefully he's playing nice. Maybe he'd want to stay with his family after all this.
[ an explanation would be nice but it isn't expected. there is so much that remains hidden and she knows he is keen to keep a tight lid on things while she strives to keep her own gates open.
she told herself she can wait for whatever comes with him. perhaps it will work out in the end. ]
No, he misses you. I can tell.
I think he misses the dogs too. They're with someone else, as you know.
When it's been living with me? Yeah, I doubt you know him well enough. Would've picked up some pretty bad habits by now. He's a space snowgie now. He's a Blake.
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Bellamy, don't you start.
He wants to accessorize! Well, I thought it would be nice to accessorize him. And I needed an identifier.
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[ maybe he should emphasise the you. he knows he wouldn't be able to identify chion within a snowgie farm. they all look the same to him, same rounded bodies and white snow, same sized heads and feet. he looks at the photo again and finds he smiles, it small and soft. ]
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Well, I can tell mine apart but it is a little difficult in photographs. And he is a guest and he should feel a little special.
Especially since his someone has up and left without warning.
[ she wasn't going to go there but. here she is. ]
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[ he sighs and shifts, despite knowing this was inevitable. as much as he wants to blind himself to elsa, he knows she cares for him. it seems to be the common thread between the three people with him and her. ]
Look, I'm sorry you had to be bothered with this and given Chion. I figured I had all of this covered before I came out here. It's the first thing I did.
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I'm not bothered at all! I'm glad they were all thoughtful enough to find the right people for your pets. I would have taken the dogs in as well.
You do what you must, Bellamy. I didn't mean to make you feel guilty.
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They weren't meant to come out here. Or even pass off the snowball to you. I was coming back. I just needed a time out.
[ apparently that's what he and clarke needed. the guilt he feels over the entire situation stems from something greater than where they find themselves now. it's only a branch of a much bigger tree, one he hopes elsa never has to see. ]
[ what he says isn't quite more than what he's given everyone else. but it's more than what he usually gives anyone. stack that on top of three people here seeing him vulnerable and he can accurately presume he feels emotional exhaustion from lowering those walls he keeps built so tall and thick from morning to dusk. ]
[ he sends another text: ]
Thanks for taking care of him. He looks like he's enjoying himself.
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I understand the need to retreat. I hope it helps you as much as those have helped me in the past.
[ to say she is startled by his relative openness would be an exaggeration but she is grateful for it nonetheless. the fact that he has responded is enough for her for now. ]
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[ and he does. he thinks it is. things with between himself and clarke may remain slightly tense and uncertain, but there's no grand elephant in the room. he suspects she'll stop pushing him away now that they've talked and he'll stop fighting her on it. it had been a long, overdue thing he should've had the guts to confront her on before. but it's too easy to brush things under the rug, especially when it comes to himself. ]
[ but his reasons for retreating are far from simple. one of his reasons keeps sending him pictures of snowgies. ]
Hopefully he's playing nice. Maybe he'd want to stay with his family after all this.
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she told herself she can wait for whatever comes with him. perhaps it will work out in the end. ]
No, he misses you. I can tell.
I think he misses the dogs too. They're with someone else, as you know.
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Yeah? How? You do remember your snowballs can't speak, right?
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[ insert foot tapping here. ]
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Chion makes the photo.
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Do snowgies even experience that?
[ bellamy should know. chion has acted out on several occasions when he felt himself envious of the attention nike and zelo received over him. ]
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I'm surprised you haven't learned that by now.
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