They weren't meant to come out here. Or even pass off the snowball to you. I was coming back. I just needed a time out.
[ apparently that's what he and clarke needed. the guilt he feels over the entire situation stems from something greater than where they find themselves now. it's only a branch of a much bigger tree, one he hopes elsa never has to see. ]
[ what he says isn't quite more than what he's given everyone else. but it's more than what he usually gives anyone. stack that on top of three people here seeing him vulnerable and he can accurately presume he feels emotional exhaustion from lowering those walls he keeps built so tall and thick from morning to dusk. ]
[ he sends another text: ]
Thanks for taking care of him. He looks like he's enjoying himself.
I understand the need to retreat. I hope it helps you as much as those have helped me in the past.
[ to say she is startled by his relative openness would be an exaggeration but she is grateful for it nonetheless. the fact that he has responded is enough for her for now. ]
[ and he does. he thinks it is. things with between himself and clarke may remain slightly tense and uncertain, but there's no grand elephant in the room. he suspects she'll stop pushing him away now that they've talked and he'll stop fighting her on it. it had been a long, overdue thing he should've had the guts to confront her on before. but it's too easy to brush things under the rug, especially when it comes to himself. ]
[ but his reasons for retreating are far from simple. one of his reasons keeps sending him pictures of snowgies. ]
Hopefully he's playing nice. Maybe he'd want to stay with his family after all this.
[ an explanation would be nice but it isn't expected. there is so much that remains hidden and she knows he is keen to keep a tight lid on things while she strives to keep her own gates open.
she told herself she can wait for whatever comes with him. perhaps it will work out in the end. ]
No, he misses you. I can tell.
I think he misses the dogs too. They're with someone else, as you know.
When it's been living with me? Yeah, I doubt you know him well enough. Would've picked up some pretty bad habits by now. He's a space snowgie now. He's a Blake.
Between you and me, I think I'm in a little bit of denial. Chion's a handful. Kind of want to believe he's not a snowball with feelings and that his fits are just ... genetic.
It makes it a less less personal, doesn't it? It's easy to lump them together as one entity, because they certainly can act like sheep, but one-on-one time tells you otherwise.
You can keep telling me you'll take Chion back, but you're never going to get him unless I leave here. He may be a pain in the ass, but he's cute. Guess that's his personality.
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They weren't meant to come out here. Or even pass off the snowball to you. I was coming back. I just needed a time out.
[ apparently that's what he and clarke needed. the guilt he feels over the entire situation stems from something greater than where they find themselves now. it's only a branch of a much bigger tree, one he hopes elsa never has to see. ]
[ what he says isn't quite more than what he's given everyone else. but it's more than what he usually gives anyone. stack that on top of three people here seeing him vulnerable and he can accurately presume he feels emotional exhaustion from lowering those walls he keeps built so tall and thick from morning to dusk. ]
[ he sends another text: ]
Thanks for taking care of him. He looks like he's enjoying himself.
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I understand the need to retreat. I hope it helps you as much as those have helped me in the past.
[ to say she is startled by his relative openness would be an exaggeration but she is grateful for it nonetheless. the fact that he has responded is enough for her for now. ]
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[ and he does. he thinks it is. things with between himself and clarke may remain slightly tense and uncertain, but there's no grand elephant in the room. he suspects she'll stop pushing him away now that they've talked and he'll stop fighting her on it. it had been a long, overdue thing he should've had the guts to confront her on before. but it's too easy to brush things under the rug, especially when it comes to himself. ]
[ but his reasons for retreating are far from simple. one of his reasons keeps sending him pictures of snowgies. ]
Hopefully he's playing nice. Maybe he'd want to stay with his family after all this.
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she told herself she can wait for whatever comes with him. perhaps it will work out in the end. ]
No, he misses you. I can tell.
I think he misses the dogs too. They're with someone else, as you know.
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Yeah? How? You do remember your snowballs can't speak, right?
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[ insert foot tapping here. ]
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Chion makes the photo.
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Do snowgies even experience that?
[ bellamy should know. chion has acted out on several occasions when he felt himself envious of the attention nike and zelo received over him. ]
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I'm surprised you haven't learned that by now.
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