[ he keeps his gaze on her, letting his attention flicker to her leg for only a brief moment. if she's not going to flinch or even cry out from any weight she abruptly places on it, then she mustn't have hurt it at all. but he remains sitting, finding he doesn't have the drive to stand and stand over her in the hope to intimidate her. ]
[ she can take her opportunity to flee, running as far from something he gets. but all bellamy can think about is how she's too quick to write herself off as not being integral at all. if it wasn't for raven, he knows he'd be dead at the hands of the mountain men personally or by having blow himself to bits in the acid fog room. no deal would ensure the lives of their people. they're not the heroes of the greek myths, but the people found within the stories that do their best to survive. ]
Or — [ emphasising it means he's being a jackass, and bellamy does it on purpose. ] — maybe I'm going to tell you that without you, we wouldn't have gotten our people out. Did you ever think about that, Raven? [ he doubts it. out of all the people to convince her to stay, it had been him. when raven reyes wanted to run away from their very first camp, bellamy blake had been the one to convince her to let her roots settle into the earth there and not leave. she doesn't brag, but she has no self-awareness, either. ]
[ but he finds he doesn't think about the eudio incentives now. all he can think about is placing his trust in someone who deserves it. the representatives of this city haven't earned it from him yet. lincoln had and bellamy's not so sure if he's found it within himself to forgive him yet for abandoning him. he doesn't know if he has it in himself to truly look past clarke saying together with her fingers crossed behind her back. ] Without that alliance, I'd be dead. [ his voice cracks, ] Without you, I'd be dead. [ he looks away from her as his voice becomes tense and hot with anger, thinking of lincoln abandoning him at the underground entrance. a foolproof plan hadn't quite taken into account the fool bellamy had been. ] I had a damn good plan to get our people out, I had people on my side, and you know what? It didn't go to plan!
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[ she can take her opportunity to flee, running as far from something he gets. but all bellamy can think about is how she's too quick to write herself off as not being integral at all. if it wasn't for raven, he knows he'd be dead at the hands of the mountain men personally or by having blow himself to bits in the acid fog room. no deal would ensure the lives of their people. they're not the heroes of the greek myths, but the people found within the stories that do their best to survive. ]
Or — [ emphasising it means he's being a jackass, and bellamy does it on purpose. ] — maybe I'm going to tell you that without you, we wouldn't have gotten our people out. Did you ever think about that, Raven? [ he doubts it. out of all the people to convince her to stay, it had been him. when raven reyes wanted to run away from their very first camp, bellamy blake had been the one to convince her to let her roots settle into the earth there and not leave. she doesn't brag, but she has no self-awareness, either. ]
[ but he finds he doesn't think about the eudio incentives now. all he can think about is placing his trust in someone who deserves it. the representatives of this city haven't earned it from him yet. lincoln had and bellamy's not so sure if he's found it within himself to forgive him yet for abandoning him. he doesn't know if he has it in himself to truly look past clarke saying together with her fingers crossed behind her back. ] Without that alliance, I'd be dead. [ his voice cracks, ] Without you, I'd be dead. [ he looks away from her as his voice becomes tense and hot with anger, thinking of lincoln abandoning him at the underground entrance. a foolproof plan hadn't quite taken into account the fool bellamy had been. ] I had a damn good plan to get our people out, I had people on my side, and you know what? It didn't go to plan!