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[ bellamy doesn't want to let himself hope, because once he lets that weasel its way beneath his skin, he ends up incredibly disappointed. but he's hopeful octavia will stay, and he's hopeful she won't leave him again, telling him she wants him to linger behind despite the fact that they'd always done things together. she's his shadow, just as he is hers, and he's tired of feeling lonely without his. ]

[ but it takes him a long time before he can even think to reply, because he at least knows what he's admitting is vulnerability. ]

I never expected her to come back.

If she goes, I'm not staying this time. I need her to be with me, wherever that is.