[ bellamy leans his arms on his legs and bows his head into his hands while she talks — or speaks at him or lectures him or whatever the hell this is meant to be. he shouldn't be surprised raven's playing this role, wanting to talk him out of a decision, wanting to talk him into one like how clarke had tried to lift him from his defeated state before everything had been toasted. he rubs hard at his eyes, finding he feels as tired as he'd been on the walk back from mount weather. he hasn't slept well, unable to really close his eyes for a long period of time without seeing all of their faces and hearing her screams. ]
[ he lifts his head, but remains hunched over. his voice sounds rough, but there's no conviction in his voice. ] Yeah. I'll save everyone.
[ he sits up and looks at her. his voice isn't loud, but he's exasperated, irritated by everything — eudio trying to wash away the regret he feels, the guilt he holds, and attempting to be a better place for them, appetising enough that good people like raven would want to say. ] It's better to know the truth than to believe in some lie, Raven. You're just going to take them on their word? Believe that they're going to hold up their end of the deal because you said yes and I promise? [ he shakes his head. it hadn't worked with clarke, not when it seemed as though she had lexa in her pocket. it'd been the other way around. he'd seen how she'd changed, moving further away from leaning on him and instead looking to lexa for guidance. he'd become less of her co-leader and more of her soldier. ]
[ he thinks of how comfortable jasper had been with those from mount weather. there's no way in hell their people wouldn't have tried to escape unless they were given some incentive, wrapped neatly and tightly in a pretty package. clarke had been able to unravel it, and with that same suspicion, maybe bellamy can untangle eudio if it's as full of shit as the mountain men and the grounders. ]
People like us don't get second chances like this. People like you don't get to walk away. People like Clarke don't get to run. [ and people like bellamy? they lose everything, either way. ]
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[ he lifts his head, but remains hunched over. his voice sounds rough, but there's no conviction in his voice. ] Yeah. I'll save everyone.
[ he sits up and looks at her. his voice isn't loud, but he's exasperated, irritated by everything — eudio trying to wash away the regret he feels, the guilt he holds, and attempting to be a better place for them, appetising enough that good people like raven would want to say. ] It's better to know the truth than to believe in some lie, Raven. You're just going to take them on their word? Believe that they're going to hold up their end of the deal because you said yes and I promise? [ he shakes his head. it hadn't worked with clarke, not when it seemed as though she had lexa in her pocket. it'd been the other way around. he'd seen how she'd changed, moving further away from leaning on him and instead looking to lexa for guidance. he'd become less of her co-leader and more of her soldier. ]
[ he thinks of how comfortable jasper had been with those from mount weather. there's no way in hell their people wouldn't have tried to escape unless they were given some incentive, wrapped neatly and tightly in a pretty package. clarke had been able to unravel it, and with that same suspicion, maybe bellamy can untangle eudio if it's as full of shit as the mountain men and the grounders. ]
People like us don't get second chances like this. People like you don't get to walk away. People like Clarke don't get to run. [ and people like bellamy? they lose everything, either way. ]