[ he shrugs, and watches one of the dogs. zelo sits, and nike wanders, and he wonders if raven had been right when she said they reminded her of them. octavia wanders while he sits, waiting for her to come back to him. ]

When people leave. [ he looks at her, then drops his gaze to her hands. when people leave, it sucks. there's a hole that opens up and it's impossible to fill, so bellamy tries not to feel it at all. people come and go, and that's simply the unnatural nature of the city. octavia's come and gone, and though he's wished for her to return every passing second, he's always known she'd come back to him — or him to her, removing himself from this city to be by her side or be her shadow. ]

Back home, there's no chance of them coming back. But here … Sometimes the waiting and the wondering is the worst part. I used to think it'd be better if I just didn't know it could happen.