[For a second, she thinks to point out that she still wants to help him reach his goals, but he's had that offer on the table for a while now, and hasn't done anything about it. Maybe that was part of the reason why she has grown closer to him. Faced with the option to use her right back, and make them even, he'd said no.

She lets out a breath she wasn't sure she was holding in, and deflates like a balloon at the fair.] Yes you can. You just don't want to.

[She shakes her head, and drags her hands over her face, then taps her knees as if to shake herself out of it. Screw it, she's going to just be his friend. That's easier. You're stupid if you think you're not loved, Raven, you have a family here. Yes. But again, not the way she wants to be loved.

But one of these days, she will find someone who fights for her, not someone she has to fight for first. And it won't be an effort to be his friend meanwhile, she's been his friend until now. Maybe now that she's come clean, that awkwardness will dissolve and she will stop switching from easy to tense and then back again.]

It's easy to build walls and stick to them, Bellamy, but you're going to have to live sometime. [She looks at him, and softly continues:] We weren't exactly given that choice, even when Earth spread under our feet, all green and alive. But you have a choice here, and you're deluded if you think Octavia wouldn't want you to try.

[She sighs, and drops her gaze.] Anyway, it doesn't matter. I wanted to say it, but nothing has to happen. [They're very good at that, aren't they?]