[ he sounds amused, and is. it's better than smelling like death, like blood and dirt and sweat. he feels clean, and he guesses he smells it, too, aside from the supposed dog smell. it's the better alternative to what he's already experienced. it means he's at least lived by not holding anyone at a distance, even if it's a four legged friend. ]
[ pulling back, bellamy lets a hand fall away from her completely and rest on her leg, and the other on the small of her back near her hip. he doesn't think about it. bellamy always pulls back, ensuring there's a distance between him and anyone else. after the mountain, though, he knows his habit is starting to crumble. a part of him wonders if he hadn't stepped away from fox if maybe she would still be alive today. ]
[ his mind doesn't wander there, though. he looks to the side, then down at himself, picking up the heart before he pops it into his mouth before she thinks to steal it from him. he grabs the box from his side and holds it out to raven. ]
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[ he sounds amused, and is. it's better than smelling like death, like blood and dirt and sweat. he feels clean, and he guesses he smells it, too, aside from the supposed dog smell. it's the better alternative to what he's already experienced. it means he's at least lived by not holding anyone at a distance, even if it's a four legged friend. ]
[ pulling back, bellamy lets a hand fall away from her completely and rest on her leg, and the other on the small of her back near her hip. he doesn't think about it. bellamy always pulls back, ensuring there's a distance between him and anyone else. after the mountain, though, he knows his habit is starting to crumble. a part of him wonders if he hadn't stepped away from fox if maybe she would still be alive today. ]
[ his mind doesn't wander there, though. he looks to the side, then down at himself, picking up the heart before he pops it into his mouth before she thinks to steal it from him. he grabs the box from his side and holds it out to raven. ]
Everything about this holiday is stupid.