dominance | ( eudio cuddlr )

okay, fine.

would you give me a hug?

[ he's tempted to respond back with "idk maybe" but it's not bellamy's style, and it's not something he'd do right now. he's pulled himself back a lot from situations he'd otherwise jump into. guilt's shackled him to the spot. his own self-hate has seen him stand still when he'd otherwise move. octavia had given him some advice recently, and he's thinking he really needs to take hold of it. ]

[ live in the moment, because he's never quite had the chance to. ]

Your place or mine?

[clarke isn't sure what she was expecting out of this. she did swipe right on his cuddlr and while it might have had a little to do with boredom, she definitely wasn't expecting that sudden turn of the conversation of asking bellamy for a hug which he seems to have agreed to] i'm at my place right now but i could head to yours, if it's easier.

I'll come over.

[ she's always over at his, and it makes him wonder if his place is just the ideal location, set in the best part of town, or if she's trying to hide from something. he wouldn't be surprised if it's the latter. clarke's already run away from something before, he doesn't put it past her to do it again. ]

[clarke realizes with his response that she has he hasn't been over too much. maybe in the beginning when he first arrived but over the last few months, she has always been over at his, maybe because it feels less empty or something along those lines] okay, i'll leave the door open so you can come in.

[ bellamy doesn't bother to respond. he makes his way over, the dogs taken care of by a neighbour, and takes his time in walking to clarke's apartment. he's waiting for her to back out, to send him a message to tell him not to bother. ]

[ unsurprisingly, she doesn't. ]

[ surprisingly to him, he doesn't text her to tell her it's off. ]

[ unlike clarke, when he's at her front door, he doesn't bother to knock. he opens it slowly, letting the sound of it be enough of an indicator he's letting himself in. ] Hey, Clarke.

[clarke was just sitting on her couch when he arrives, a sketchbook in her lap from when she was drawing before she decided to browse through cuddlr and admittedly not only did she end up surprising herself by directly asking him but she was surprised that he was heading on his way over after she did ask.

she hadn't necessarily been expecting him to agree to it so the fact he did caught her a bit off guard. he could have easily told her no or just told her he'd give her a hug later with his response but instead he chose to come over to her place.

there weren't too many people who knew where her apartment was and it wasn't often she invited people over either. bellamy was the exception to that since he returned to eudio despite how she had her initial motivations were to push him away. these days it was anything but that so the moment she hears the door open, she puts her sketchbook aside and pushes herself up from the couch.

if he were to look around her apartment, it's more or less the same as he last would have seen it. art supplies and books in various places but slight change he would be the various items she has been given by her friends that seen to be decorating her apartment as well. she smiles slightly and starts to approach him] Hey, Bellamy. So you came over to give me your answer in person then?

[ bellamy's not drawn to clarke. no, he moves toward the elephant he'd given her over a year ago. while he can't remember the details — the day had been a bit of an event itself, playing games with raven, winning a stuffed toy and being gifted one — he easily recalls the elephant. he picks it up and holds it, as if expecting it to reject him. ]

I came here to see this guy.

[ but he places the elephant on a table, uncaring if it's not where it's supposed to be. it's nice that clarke's kept it, despite it being a pretty childish gift in hindsight. he doesn't look at her as he surveys her apartment, trying to find anything that's out of place and thus new. he's momentarily distracted for only a moment before he lets himself come back into focus. he knows why he's here, and it's not necessarily for a hug. now that he's standing before her, bellamy finds himself feeling a little hesitant. ] You know I'm only stirring you, right?

[clarke finds herself smiling slightly when she sees bellamy pick up the small stuffed elephant he gave her at one of the meet and greets around the time he first arrived back. it might have been a time where clarke had wanted to keep her distance from bellamy and the others but she remembers being touched by the gesture in itself and the meaning behind it when he gave her the stuffed elephant. it's not that surprising at least from her perspective that she kept it, much like everything else he had given her including the bracelet she still wears on her wrist.

she watches as he looks around her apartment though probably trying to take note of the differences since she knows it has been a while since he has been over to hers. she looks amused at his words though when he finally speaks up] Yeah, I can see that— though that doesn't quite answer my question.

[ too bad the elephant doesn't speak. he could use it to pipe up and possibly take them on a tangent. ]

[ he lets his hand linger on the elephant, squeezing it's large ear. sometimes he thinks he should've gotten her one that makes a noise whenever it's hugged, but he has a feeling it would've lost its charm quickly. ]

[ looking to clarke, he appears a little like the arrogant shit-stirrer he was in the beginning of them landing on the ground. there's a slight upward curve to his mouth and a confidence he doesn't quite feel, but bellamy's always been talented at pretending. ]

You want a hug?

[it was almost ironic how it has been so easy for her to type out her response to him earlier but when he asks her the question in person, there's a brief moment of hesitation because she can tell from the smug look on his face he was still turning this around on her by asking her the question again.

it's not like they haven't hugged before this. it's happened plenty of times between them and probably more so in the last several months since they were both more comfortable around each other lately. it had practically become an unspoken thing between them until their most recent conversation at least. she arches her brow questioningly at his words because she already answered him before] You asked me that before— the last I checked, I already gave you your answer. [technically he didn't directly say yes but conceding asking him if he would give her a hug was close enough as far as she is concerned]

I'm just checking.

[ he gives her a shrug. baiting clarke had been fun in the beginning, although it'd been born from a slightly malicious intent than anything else. now? he's doing so as a friend. it's fun to bait clarke, because it's what friends do — they push one another, albeit gently, and he definitely likes to get under her skin when the time's right. ]

[ rather than remain standing, he helps himself and flops onto her couch, stretching out. he looks up at her, lips curved upward, ] Seeing if you'd chickened out.

[clarke just watches as he heads further inside and makes himself at home by stretching out on her couch where he might find a few of her sketchbooks nearby from when she was drawing either. it's not something she dwells too much on though because his words distract her from her line of thought and she can't help but laugh slightly] Oh yeah, sure.

What makes you think I would chicken out? [maybe she can think of a couple of reasons such as the fact this was the first time she has directly asked him or that it was through cuddlr but there was no way she was backing down now]

[ truthfully, bellamy thinks clarke's brave. capable of looking out for herself and more or less a badass, he only likes to tease her for the sake of seeing her exasperated. and a part of him wonders if she's even enjoying herself here, or if she's continuing to whip herself for some misdeed she'd done when she was ten years younger. ]

[ his brows lift as he gives her a pointed look. letting that speak for itself for a moment, her sketchbooks sit in his peripherals and catches his eye. ]

What's this? [ from where he's comfortably flopped on her couch, he pulls himself up so he can lean forward to grab one. ]

[bellamy doesn't even need to respond because she can tell from the look he is giving her in that moment that it was probably because of the reasons she thought herself] Well you were wrong in assuming that either way.

[she heads over towards him and smiles slightly when she sees him pick up one of her sketchbooks. if she were paying closer attention she would notice that it was the same one she didn't want bellamy to see but right now she was currently unaware] Oh— it's just one of my sketchbook.

[ bellamy doesn't reply. glancing up at her with a slightly arched brow, he looks back down at it and invites himself to pry. ]

[ clarke never had much of a chance to draw on the ground, save for the map he'd tried to commit to memory of mount weather's bunker. after her birthday gift and what he's seen of her artwork, he thinks it a shame she hasn't used her skill for anything else. ]

[ flicking through the pages, his brows knit together. ] Do you make it a habit to draw people you know?

[clarke just leans against the couch while looking over his shoulder as he browses through her sketchbook. it had a few of her practice sketches she has started drawing for bellamy and the moment he stops on a page that happens to be featuring a drawing of him, clarke finds herself freezing slightly at his words, feeling slightly flustered at his discovery] Oh. That's— well yeah. I do that sometimes.

[she should have figured that just like how caroline happened to find out about this, it was only a matter of time before bellamy learned about it as well. it was a bit awkward though since she hadn't exactly asked him about it and it was hard to tell with his expression if he was okay with it or not]

[ he flicks through a few more pages before he stops. he thinks he can see her from her peripherals, but he doesn't look up at her. a part of him doesn't want to, giving her some semblance of privacy even though he's destroyed it by a fraction. ]

Do you have a book per person?

[ because there's a lot of what looks like him in this book, but bellamy doesn't want to think of himself as the type to believe anyone who has freckles, shaggy-like hair, and a particular slope to his nose is him. ]

[in this moment, clarke feels like just grabbing the sketchbook from him before he delve any further in that particular one but she knows that would only draw attention to the fact she hadn't intended for him to see it. his question doesn't help either because he was the only person she did that for.

clarke tries to play it off casually though while her mind scrambles for an answer without outing herself entirely] Yeah— I figure that's easier for organization so everything is all in one place when I'm looking for something I'm working on. [technically that's not a lie since she does like to keep her work organized]

So.

[ he glances back down at the sketchbook, still open to a sketch of what looks like himself. it has to be him. she hasn't stated otherwise, and though bellamy's sometimes arrogant in the way he wants to attract people, he doesn't think he's entirely out of line to believe this is him. ]

Who else do you have sketchbooks of? [ he looks up at her, brow arched. it's all innocent, truly. for once, he's not trying to goad her in an attempt to tease her mercilessly. ]

[before bellamy even asks the question, she knows she should have seen it coming because of course he would ask about it more specifically] Oh— mostly a couple people I've done commissions for and a few other friends of mine.

Some of my other books only have a few sketches though because they have long since left this place. [she feels bad slightly for bending the truth to work in her favor with his question but the alternative is far more embarrassing]

[ he believes her. clarke has talent, and he knows that anyone who's seen her drawings would agree. he finds no fault in her response, even though he hadn't endeavoured to search for one. ]

Who commissioned me?

[ he looks back down at the sketchbook, gently pulling the pages from the front of the book back so he can get a better look at the drawings he'd sped right past. ]

[ he glances up at her. ] Assuming these are me. They look a little like me.

[clarke is relieved that he doesn't question too much further on who else she had sketchbooks for but his questions catches her by surprise. she knows that if she names anyone that he knows then he'll follow up with them about it which will only make things worse for her so instead she decides to admit to it.

it's not like she hasn't drawn people before yet for for reasons she doesn't want to acknowledge, it is making her feeling slightly nervous in answering his question] Yeah, they're drawings of you.

It's— well it wasn't exactly for a commission but I guess that would be me. [or in other words, she decided to just draw him because she felt like it]

[ bellamy's not too sure who he was expecting to be the requester of any sketches drawn to his liking. but it's evident he hadn't been expecting that. ]

[ he looks at her, then glances down. it's almost like the entire sketchbook has a new meaning, even though he can't quite discern what that is just yet. he understands what commissions are — people pay and request for something in particular to be sketched — but he knows clarke isn't paying herself. ]

Why? [ his voice is soft when he looks up at her, expression matching his tone. ]

[clarke just watches him for a few moments as if to determine how he would react and it feels like the longest couple minutes of her life when he responds only to ask her question: why she was drawing him?

it should be a simple answer but it's one that clarke finds herself not too sure about considering it is just something she found herself doing one day without realizing it. her expression softens slightly when she momentarily looks towards him and finally manages to find the words to answer him]

Well you already know that I draw people I'm friends with sometimes— and well, you're important to me so I guess I was feeling inspired.

Edited (oops i missed a word) 2016-12-18 08:38 (UTC)

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